So, It's kinda strange how things workout. Since I teach middle school bible study, I realize that the lessons I choose at random, aren't actually random. The past few weeks, I've taught on Integrity, Endurance, and Courage. All of which, apply dramatically in my life. I'm starting to question whether these lessons are meant for me, or for the students.
Lately I've been finding it extremely difficult to find a job. I've applied to so many already and never seem to catch a break with any of them. It's so frustrating to watch the payment day come closer and closer when I still don't even have a job. I don't believe it's due to lack of prayer, because the Lord can vouch for me that I log into that prayer request several times a day. I trust in Him that I will get a job, and that things will work out, but at the same time, I know that it's not going to go away.
Even after this payment, I still need to save up money for several other things that the deadlines are rushing towards. I don't know if it's in God's will at this time for me to get a job, but I sure hope it is. I'm running out of time, and options.
In the lessons I've taught throughout my great worry for getting a job, I've learned that I need to place all my trust and faith in Him for receiving this, and that I will be taken cared of as long as I keep Him in the center of it all. I believe in this, that He is the center of me getting a job. I mean, I need funds to do His work, don't I?
So then why is it such a chore to find one?
Is this not what I need?
Is there more to the lesson that I'm just not getting? Lord, please teach me this lesson before it's too late.
I place it in Your hands Lord. Thank you for providing me with what I already have.
Insomnia
Monday, February 14, 2011
I sit in my room,
Look at the time.
1:25 it reads,
The minutes tic by.
Melancholy thoughts,
Whistle through my head.
No notion finished,
Or put to rest.
The mind is a maze,
In it’s endless wonders.
Thoughts change,
As time turns,
Then comes to a halt,
Dead end stop.
What’s my thought?
For I forgot,
About an hour ago.
2:29 it reads,
The minutes tic by.
Melancholy thoughts,
Whistle through my head.
No notion finished,
Or put to rest.
Look at the time.
1:25 it reads,
The minutes tic by.
Melancholy thoughts,
Whistle through my head.
No notion finished,
Or put to rest.
The mind is a maze,
In it’s endless wonders.
Thoughts change,
As time turns,
Then comes to a halt,
Dead end stop.
What’s my thought?
For I forgot,
About an hour ago.
2:29 it reads,
The minutes tic by.
Melancholy thoughts,
Whistle through my head.
No notion finished,
Or put to rest.
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