I fall before You now,
I'm hindered at You're feet.
My sins are heavy,
They're deep.

I've failed You again.
I've let You down.
Disgraced You.

My actions are
Shameful.
My thoughts
Bring You pain.

I lead a life of,
regret, should have,
could have, would haves.

Wash me clean,
Dry me off.
Set me free.
On the right path.

Keep me straight,
Pick me up.
Make me whole.

I am a tree.

My bark is tough,
Crackled, broken,
And rigid.

It's worn out in places,
Weakened in many.

My limbs are reaching,
Aimlessly above me.
They quiver in the wind.
Move with it's gusts,
Snap in the breeze.

My leaves are changing,
Again, it seems.
They twist and turn,
Fall off, and grow.

I am a tree.

My surroundings,
They're changing.
They move me,
They break me.

I am the remains,
The results,
The outcome,
The compilation.

The winds will change,
Again it seems.
It'll pick up,
It'll calm down,
It'll weaken me,
Then build me up again.

I am a tree.


Father, be the wind, break me down, change me. I'm tired of this life I've been leading. It's meaningless and striping away the person I am, the person I was, and the person I want to be. Break my habits, make me new. I am nothing, with out You. 

Confucius

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Strange things are happening...

It's slowly but surely creeping up on me. I would have never before thought this... but I think, I just might... Be becoming a Morning Person.

"That irritatingly happy person that has no need for high octane coffee when they wake up. Generally, these people are a myth found only in Narnia, but every now and then one will escape and it is the job of the (much more awesome) night people to coerce them back into the wardrobe."

Even though I appreciate the humor there, I do need coffee in my system. 

I've been routinely waking up at seven a.m. everyday. I find myself to be a bit more productive and generally enjoy the relaxing morning time with my coffee. Oh God, I'm getting old too soon. 

New Beginnings

The indispensable first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want. - Ben Stein 

So what DO I want? 

• A job
• To finish school
• A dependable vehicle that doesn't make strange noises or give me the feeling that it will break down at any given moment. 
• To be more dependant on my faith. To have unconditional knowledge that a being much greater than myself has my future in His hands. 
• A growing relationship with my family. 
• To have a successful career
• To begin the organization God see's me starting. 
• To find love