Momma knows...

Uh, I absolutely hate being sick. I feel useless, just laying in bed, sleeping most of the day away. I have so much that needs to be done and so much that I should be doing, instead of lounging in my bed trying to down as much warm tea I possibly can, in order to get my voice back.

I've had a lot of time to think though.  A lot of time to think about my life and what I'm doing with it. Is my life being led by selfishness or am I living my life for God. It's times like these when I can turn back and analyze all the things I've done or said or thought. My long term life goals are still the same. I still plan on getting my EMT basic, finding a job, and eventually using it for His work. However, if I'm suppose to be doing it ultimately for Him, then why is it so easy to slack off in that class when I know I should be putting every effort of my being into it? I have so much work that I need to do for that class, so much to catch up on. I haven't put in the real effort into that class that it deserves but yet I tried so hard, and so long to get into the program. Why is it, that I've taken yet another opportunity for granted?

I've been asking myself those questions since the first week of class, when I noticed that my attention in that class drifted. I had nothing distracting me from that one goal. I knew what I wanted and I knew how to get it. Why then is it hard for me to concentrate on a subject that I'm usually pulled into concentrating on.

Here comes the end to all of it. Today I will catch up in this class.

• I will not fall into procrastination. 
• I will not put socialization in front of my goal. 
• I will not slack off. 

If this is truly the path that God has chosen for me, I will work towards it eagerly and with wholeheartedness. 

Father, I pray that you give me the ability to not lose focus. I pray that You inspire me to continue on with the class and give it all I can till it's over  (one month). I pray that You use me for Your will. Keep my eyes on You Father. - Amen. 

:) I hope I live my life like this.

Under an old brass paperweight is my list of things to do today
Go to the bank and the hardware store, put a new lock on the cellar door
I cross 'em off as I get 'em done but when the sun is set
There's still more than a few things left I haven't got to yet

Go for a walk, say a little prayer
Take a deep breath of mountain air
Put on my glove and play some catch
It's time that I make time for that
Wade the shore and cast a line
Look up a long lost friend of mine
Sit on the porch and give my girl a kiss
Start livin', that's the next thing on my list

Wouldn't change the course of fate but cuttin' the grass just had to wait
'Cause I've got more important things like pushin' my kid on the backyard swing
I won't break my back for a million bucks I can't take to my grave
So why put off for tomorrow what I could get done today

Like go for a walk, say a little prayer
Take a deep breath of mountain air
Put on my glove and play some catch
It's time that I make time for that
Wade the shore and cast a line
Look up a long lost friend of mine
Sit on the porch and give my girl a kiss
Start livin', that's the next thing on my list

Raise a little hell, laugh 'til it hurts
Put an extra five in the plate at church
Call up my folks just to chat
It's time that I make time for that
Stay up late, then oversleep
Show her what she means to me
Catch up on all the things I've always missed
Just start livin', that's the next thing on my list

Under an old brass paperweight
Is my list of things to do today

In the spirit of Thanksgiving...

I'd like to think back on all the things that I'm thankful to God for each day. Father, thank you for the life I have, the family I have (as dysfunctional as it may be :P ) and for the all the friends I've been blessed with.

Thank you Father, for taking me down the path of life I've chosen and showing me new things each day. Thank you for teaching me the lessons I've learned and allowing me to experiences every moment of it.

Thank you Father for the lessons to come and the experience that await me.

:)

Missions

“Missions is not the ultimate goal of the church. Worship is. Missions exists because worship doesn't.” - John Piper

Change

Change. We don't like it. We fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. It hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn't is lying, but here's the truth sometimes the more things change the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Sometimes change is everything. - Grey's Anatomy

180movie.com

http://heartchanger.com/getinvolved.php

This stuffs deep.

Needhim.org

So I ran across this website that seems pretty interesting. I haven't gone through all of it yet but it seems extremely useful.

http://www.needhim.org/