Hurts, Habits, and Hang ups

So, I started this eight week Bible study on:
Life's Healing Choicesby John Baker
LIFE HAPPENS. Happiness and healing are yours for the choosing. We've all been hurt by other people, we've hurt ourselves, and we've hurt others. And as a result, every single one of us ends up with some sort of hurt, hang-up, or habit. But the question we all face is, Where do we go from here? Life's Healing Choices offers freedom from our hurts, hang-ups, and habits through eight healing choices that promise true happiness and life transformation. Using the Beatitudes of Jesus as a foundation, Rick Warren and John Baker, developed the eight choices shared in this book.
In addition to practical, encouraging biblical teaching, each chapter includes two real-life stories of men and women whose lives have been transformed by living out the eight choices in this book. Through making each of these choices, you too will find God's pathway to wholeness, growth, spiritual maturity, happiness, and healing. You'll find real answers, real hope, and a real future—one healing choice at a time.

http://www.saddlebackfamily.com/maturity/spiritualgrowthcenter/topics/hurtshabitsandhangups.html

I started reading the book a few days ago. Seems like it's going to be an interesting realizational book.

Perpetual College Life

Every time I bring up how much I want to speed past all these college years, someone always has to butt in to say, "but it's all gonna be worth it in the end". Well no joke. 

Obviously, college pays off in the end. Obviously, that's the reason why I'm putting myself through so much stress. I know the classes I'm taking are eventually going to work toward my future, and any future involving my want to be a missionary. However!, I really just want this year/ this semester, to just be done with already. 

I've been making my school schedule to the maximum possible amount, and I can feel the years being drained from me. Lord, let me get through this semester alive, and after that, You can do as You will. 

Beautiful Slave

By Take No Glory : a band of Musicianaries.
27 MILLION PEOPLE ARE ENSLAVED TODAY
80% ARE WOMEN 50% ARE CHILDREN
EVERY MINUTE TWO CHILDREN ARE TRAFFICKED
FOR SEXUAL EXPLOITATION
TOGETHER WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE
The Oppressed Will Be Set Free. Jesus Christ

Beautiful Slave Lyrics

i dont know where i am

theyve taken all that i had

smuggled in for a lucrative trade

beaten, bartered

broken in, until i obey

i used to be childlike

innocent and safe

now im someone else's treasure

a strangers pleasure

smothered in shame

succumbed with drugs

but Im not numb

all I feel is pain

is this all a dream

will i ever be the same?

can anyone hear me?

will anyone break these chains?

who will free me?

from this dark place?

does God see me?

what is His name?

will He help me?

im just a beautiful slave

my worst fear is my fate

im getting older each day

every girl too old in years

mysteriously just disappears

they never mention her name

they take away piece by piece

i dont think i have any left

ive slowly given up all hope

given in to this sleepless bed

inside these bars

i feel so seared

by each new face

how could this ever be

every memory be erased?

He can hear you

Hes seeking you,

He wants to heal you

Jesus knows the real you

Jesus Loves The Little Children

All The Children Of World

Red & Yellow, Black & White

Theyre Precious In His Sight

Jesus Loves The Little Children Of The World

Hes Got The Whole World In His Hands

Sept 10th

Since it's been a few months of being on here, and the fact that I actually have time to be on here, I guess I can write about what I've been up to.

1.) Still working the same job.
2.) Taking an Emt Program as well as a few basics to finish up.
3.) Still teaching D Groups at church.
4.) Got back from China a few months ago.

The details of that? Well, since getting back from China, I've realized several things in my life need to change. I need to stop revolving my life around what I want, money, and living my life on a ridiculous time span that's unattainable. Life's gotta be based on faith and knowing God's gonna place you where you need to be.

It's still hard for me at times to believe that, but at the end of the day, with a calm heart, I know it to be true.

The Emt Program seems random to some, since I don't plan on working in the Emt field forever/ never really thought of it as a career move. I guess I never took a second thought to my wanting of an Emt, and always knew it's what I'm "suppose to do". Recently I spoke at my church about China, and the guy that followed me was a missionary talking about Haiti. It really clicked that I'm suppose to work in a clinic in Haiti, and it seems like it would work out, being that I'll have my Emt way before that in January.

I'm still highly considering moving to China to teach English at a university over their, and am still working on my bachelors in order to get over there with the program I'm wanting to be apart of.

In all of this, I still know, at the end of it all, I'm called to work with sex trafficking. I know all this other stuff in Haiti and China is suppose to prepare me for that. I know I'm not ready to be working within all of that and I understand. My heart still says it's the purpose to what I'm working for and I look forward to the day that I actually am.

Besides all of that, there's not a whole lot going on in my life. I'm occupied with school everyday of the week and work most days as well. I'm at the church on Wednesdays, and am doing homework most of my down time. Overbook myself this semester? You know it. Social life this semester? Not.At.All. Regrets? I hope not in the end.

All I am is Yours

So I'll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I'll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours